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thegirlnextDOOR

I've told you.. I dislike changes at last minute! And now, yes, there is another alteration at the last juncture. No class for tomorrow until next Tuesday. Wow. Yes, I'm happy because I can go back to Kluang ady. I'm fuming as I don't like such things being thrown at me without any early notice. You know, I have a plan. Gosh.. I'm gonna tolerate with all these in future. Oopz, I should say.. no more repetitive changes again~

One more thing. I'm sure in the previous blog it was stated I've made up my mind and are firm with the choice. Well, I'm sinking again. I've no idea which to choose AGAIN! The company called me yesterday right after I've blogged about my current choice. Well, she asked me to attend for the interview session, which would fall on 9th of June. It's a Tuesday. And, what a coincidence. My sis is also going to attend a interview for her scholarship thingy somewhere in KL. Wow.. both of us are doing the same thing on the same day. That's called sisters-fate. LoL.

Alright. Don't ask me where should I be heading for. My mind is full of question marks swinging all around. But, please allow me to ask you where can I go. I do need some advice.
Plan A or Plan B? Or, perhaps, pick both? (oh no no no.. taking both will kill me).

Things can turn out great if we try not to see on the dark side.

It was on Saturday. A friend smsed me and said another friend of us received an email from Scicom regarding the class being postponed to 27th, Wednesday. Yes, it was supposed to begin on Monday. Their email came in quite late as I think that was quite irresponsible for informing us late. Moreover, they smsed us on Sunday. It's really a last minute thing to do. I know, by all means, they would not simply change the date. Perhaps, they may have some unavoidable reasons behind.

I was quite frustrated actually. Coz I'm a person who will plan things few days before. So, it ultimately altered some of my plans. So, I re-arranged my things. Instead of going to classes on Monday, I went to MV in the afternoon and searched for something. Shopping alone can be quite lonely.. And I had my lunch alone too. So pathetic.. LoL.

It's a Tuesday. This morning was quite busy with meeting up with lecturers and requiring them to fill up some referee forms to apply for MBA thingy. Met two of them. There's one from my faculty. She's a Phd holder. She advised me a lot. I think I gained much, too. I guessed the trip back to UM was quite meaningful. As I walked along the classes I've been in for 3 years, I really can't bear to part with the environment for which I had been so familiar with..

Anyway, no classes but utilising the time to fasten my application procedures made me feel glad. Yes, apart from seeing the dark side, there's always the bright side waiting for us to discover.

I'm going to get back to a more orderly lifestyle soon.
What's awaiting me? What sort of classes/lessons would I be attending the coming Monday?
What are the programmes that the Scicom Academy will intro to us?
Completely, idea-less. All I know is, I'm going to attend the class from 9am-5pm weekdays for the whole 2 months, to further equip myself with better interpersonal and soft skills.

4 days ago, which is on Sunday. I have sent out my resume and cover letter to a FMCG company - Reckitt Benckiser. (the one that produces products such as Dettol, Protex, Vanish, Strepsils, Shieldtox). I learnt that it is searching for suitable candidates for their management trainee program. So, I entered its website and uploaded all the relevant docs. It's the first company for which I apply for a job. Well, yesterday, they phoned me. Asking me to further email my results starting from SPM up to current semester's to them.

The lady who called me was quite polite. In the sense that we chatted quite a while. She asked me some basic questions as well as I told her I'm in midst of nowhere to make a decision as I'm also interested in doing MBA. Her advice was, I can work and at the same time studying part time. I know that's the only option if I'm not willing to give up both. (All right, I shall wait if I'm shortlisted for the interview and decide this later).
: there goes the word YH mentioned in her blog: 活在当下.

5 years before:
I've completed SPM. I was at crossroads. I sobbed. I was down. Truly conquered by decision making process. I "used to" have my own goals in life. That is to be a designer, either fashion or graphic. Arts and design have both become an aim in my secondary life. They used to be the motivation for me to complete my secondary school. And, yes, I can choose to go my own way. (Be a designer). To do things according to my interests.

NO. That was not like that. Which parents would being 100% supportive for this kind of decision? I can say, only some of them. By all means, they want their children to pursue education that could secure a better future. Yes, education is essential. The higher, the better.

So, STPM became my final choice. And, there I went to SMKTHO. I was not disappointed. Because I should also respect their wish of guiding me to making wise choice. I dare not be blameful. Well, there ended STPM. Truly, I had tried my very best then. Because, the sixth form marked the first important stage in my life. To change, I must work hard.

And I DID it. I did my parents proud. I was satisfied. I was filled with appreciation but also with tiny regrets. (for not pursuing my interest in design).

3 years before:

So excited. Life's finally reaching to another peak phase in life. Going to enter University. Going to be a university student. It can be quite thrilling during the campus life. I've earned a lot. Not academically but through various personal life lessons which even books cant have such life philosophies.

Learnt about growing up. The changes of being dependent at home to being not relying too much on parents. Staying in the hostel. No personal transport. Walking to a distance of 300-metres away to attend classes at the faculty. Regardless sunny or rainy days. Walking and climbing up 4th floor to my room has become a norm.

Hostel life has become so precious to me. With friends of all backgrounds staying together, united as one part of the hostel - ASTARIANS (college's name is ASTAR- Asrama Tunku Abdul Rahman). Hostel is just like my home.

Now:
I have such strong feeling of going back to the past. Now, 3 years of study has ended. I still could not believe such beautiful memories will vanish physically from my life.

Being in a transition between graduation and worklife OR pursuing Master programme is the toughest decision I've ever met. Yes, doing Masters is always better than working. That's how adults always educate us to pursue higher education level to secure a better job and guaranteed salary. I do heed their advice. I agree with it, too.

But when we are making choices, we often make comparison between the pros of the 2 things. Of course we want to make a wise decision which is regarding our future. Some people said, working also can upgrade us. In the way that we develop interpersonal skill by experiences of working together with colleagues. Working experiences also guide us to become a mature person. That is how it often guide us to become a potential and capable employee as time nurture us.

This is all between making choices. Whether that will be filled with regrets or satisfaction. I dare not say I am truly satisfied with who I am today. Because, we cannot judge life. But I am happy with who and what I am today.
I've lost something precious to me but I've also gained another at the same time.
We can never have both.

That is life. There's no so-called perfect life.

After the half day at Air Papan.. We also had planned a birthday blast for Soo Fei. Altogether 9 of us went to Barney's - our first stop. And yes~ I guess all of these Convent gals enjoyed the gathering & celebration. We took turns and snapped photos with SF, the birthday gal. After that, we decided to go to Old Town for our teatime. Wow.. 9pm.. and we're having tea break at the 2nd floor of the outlet. The ambience is nice~ It's my first time there..

A short note specially dedicated to SF:
To me, you are really a nice friend. You are there for me whenever I need you.. flashing back through the times in KL. You assisted me a lot. You even advised me on certain things. I'll never forget the times we spent together and anticipating for our future. I'll never regret for knowing you. Hope all the best for you.. =) Bless you always...

I have finished my last paper in Uni life!!!

Quite excited at first..
But now.. feeling rather a bit sad...
Gonna leave hostel very soon...
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Get together and depart..
It's really part and parcels of life.

Out of a sudden, I feel like going for a movie. You know, lamn studying and focusing on notes without remembering any of them actually wasted a lot of time. Rather than seeing the time passing like that.. why not choose to do something meaningful? LoL.

So.. I decided to go for a break. Went to One U for dinner last night with Raymond and dragged him along to watch "Threads of Destiny", which I think it must be quite a nice Japanese love story.
Well, not bad either.. just like I've imagined it. It touched my heart but somehow, sort of not that touching like it has described in its introduction and synopsis.

Watever it is.. I've managed to relax myself before I start to strive hard again today..
There will be 2 papers on Monday and 1 in the following day.